Say Goodbye,
I Can’t Look Back.
I’m On My Own!
Lina was, of course, right.
None of them liked it. Well, to be entirely honest, neither did Lina… but
it wasn’t like she had much of a choice in the matter. She was the Chaos
Knight, and when L-Sama Spoke… well… the Chaos Knight went.
Zelgadis put down his coffee,
folded his arms and looked at Lina. “I don’t like it at all, Lina.”
“Well, to tell the honest
truth, Zel… I’m not particularly fond of it either. For a number of reasons,
none of which we need to go into right now as they would only cloud the
issue. But I don’t have a choice. And so neither do you,” Lina returned
with a sigh, pushing around the last of her breakfast on the plate in front
of her.
Zelgadis looked at his coffee
cup, then back up to Lina. “So we’re just supposed to let you walk out
of here and go off somewhere that you’ve never been? Off on some great
unknown quest on your own?”
“Gosh, Zel... it’s not like
I’m some little kid or anything. I did travel on my own for a while before
I met you guys,” Lina sighed over her cup of cinnamon cocoa, then took
a sip.
“But, Lina… I’m supposed
to be your bodyguard. How can I be your bodyguard if I can’t go with you?”
Gourry said, looking unhappy.
Lina hung her head and sighed.
How could she possibly explain to the blonde that she was completely capable
of taking care of herself… even more so now that she had the position of
Chaos Knight. “Gourry, I’m asking you to stay here. You have to act like
Kira is me, okay?” She set down her cup and glanced to Kira. I have
serious doubts about this plot now. Lina thought.
Kira smiled faintly. I
know, Lina. But don’t worry. Gourry will be… fine. After Lina shot
her a mildly startled look, Kira grinned. “So then are we in agreement?”
Amelia shook her head slowly.
“I may not like this, Miss Lina, but in the name of Good and Justice, I
cannot let anyone get the upper hand on you! I will do my best to convince
the world that Lina Inverse is right here with us!”
Almost everyone seated at
the kitchen table facefaulted. Gourry just looked around, confused. “But…
she is right here, Amelia.”
You know, I’m going to
miss this, Kira… Lina thought at her elder.
Kira smiled to Lina, replying
in kind. I know, Lina. But keep bright the thought that soon you’ll
return to it.
Lina nodded slowly, rising
from the table. “Well… I’m going to go pack…”
Amelia sighed unhappily.
“Miss Lina…? You won’t be able to take your talismans, will you?”
Lina paused, and then shook
her head. “No… Kira will have to keep them. We can’t do anything that might
hint at her not being me. Trust me, I’ll be fine, Amelia.” And before she
could hear another argument, she left the kitchen and the unhappy little
group of friends that she was leaving behind.
It was afternoon all too
soon and even Lina had to admit that Kira was a near-exact image of Lina.
In fact, Lina felt as if she were looking into a mirror when she looked
at Kira now. And no doubt Kira felt the same.
For the hundredth time,
Lina resisted the urge to yank out the braid in her hair. It felt funny,
and she didn’t like it very much. The first few times she’d actually reached
up to undo it, Kira had swatted her. Shortly it would be up to Lina herself
to keep from pulling it out.
The two redheads stepped
into the living area, assuming the roles that they were to play, and the
group of friends looked up at them. Lina turned to Kira. “Now, promise
me that you won’t do anything rash.”
“Rash!?” Kira shot back,
flipping her loose hair. “I never do anything rash. If I fireball them,
then they deserved it.”
Lina smirked. “At least
try not to destroy the village while I’m gone. I’m counting on you, Lina.”
Kira shot the group a look
and then looked back to Lina, eyes wide with innocence. “As long as they
don’t provoke me…”
Zelgadis unfolded his arms.
“Now, look here, Lina…”
Amelia shivered, looking
to the one who at least looked like Lina but was actually Kira. “That’s
scary, Miss Kira…”
Zelgadis blinked. He looked
at the two redheads for a moment, blinked again, and then shook his head.
“Damn.”
Gourry had no idea what
was going on. “But Lina! It’s hard to know what won’t provoke you!”
Kira sighed. “Never mind,
Gourry. You’d better get moving, Kira. You have a long journey ahead of
you.” Older ruby eyes looked to nearly identical but younger ones.
Lina nodded. “I know.” She
turned and walked over to Amelia, giving the girl a hug. Quietly, she whispered
to the girl. “Be careful, Amelia. Try not to wander too far from Kira’s
wards here… the house has some protections of its own, okay? And Kira may
have some knowledge you want to learn.”
Amelia nodded, trying not
to cry. She hated goodbyes, and especially now because she couldn’t really
even say goodbye properly. “Be careful…”
Lina slipped out of the
girl’s grasp and looked at Zelgadis. She considered for a moment, and then
figured she could only die once, and hugged the startled chimera. “Zel…
take care of Amelia for me. You promise?”
Zelgadis, still mostly startled
from the sudden embrace, nodded. “I… promise.”
Lina smiled at him, and
turned to Gourry. She fidgeted for a moment, and then simply hugged him.
“Take care of yourself,”
Gourry nodded in confusion,
looking over to Kira. “Why is Kira hugging me?”
Amelia and Zelgadis hit
the floor. Lina looked at Gourry in amazement, and Kira thought briefly
of trying to explain it one more time, then gave up. Gourry obviously didn’t
know the two had swapped roles. “She’s leaving, Gourry.”
Gourry considered this.
“Okay…” He grabbed up Lina and hugged her with great enthusiasm. Lina stiffened,
and then decided that Kira probably wouldn’t beat the ever-loving stuffing
out of him. So instead, she laughed. “Okay, big boy… you make it pretty
clear. So you take care of everyone for me, okay?”
Gourry set Lina on her feet
and nodded. “I will, Miss Kira.”
Lina looked at Kira. “You’ve
got your hands full with this one. Good luck.”
Kira smiled. “Trust me,
I know. You be careful… Kira.”
Lina Inverse stepped out
the front door as Kira Inverse and walked away without looking back.
Kira would not have looked
back.
Therefore, Lina couldn’t
look back.
Inside the house, life moved
on as best it could. Kira fully assumed the role of Lina, and all too soon
a fireball went ripping through the living room to detonate on Gourry.
“Jellyfish for brains! Didn’t I just say that we were staying here?”
“But Lina, I just asked
if it would be safer for us to leave Kira’s house. I mean… do you really
want to damage your Great-great grandmother’s things? We all know your
temper…”
Despite the fact that Amelia
knew that it wasn’t really Lina, she found herself cringing. Sure enough,
Kira came blasting out of the kitchen to tackle Gourry.
“What are you saying about
my temper, Gourry?” Kira fussed, and Amelia could have sworn that Kira
was enjoying it.
“Well… we know that you
have one… and sometimes it gets away from you and buildings fall down,”
Gourry replied.
Kira kicked him through
the open window.
Zelgadis looked to Amelia.
“I think she has Lina down to a fine art.”
Amelia nodded slowly, eyes
wide as she watched Kira stalk back into the kitchen. “Are we sure that
isn’t Miss Lina?”
“I heard that, Amelia,”
Kira retorted with a wink. “And I’m not.”
Lina Inverse stood at the
crossroads just outside of town and tried to decide where she was supposed
to go. Usually she had a general idea. But today…
Reality shifted, and she
felt a decided tug within some part of her mind. She blinked, and when
she opened her eyes again, a vast expanse of blackness surrounded her.
I’ve been here before…
the Sea of Chaos. I’ve stood here twice before… Lina turned, looking
for the reason that she was there.
A blonde woman in gold stood
there, an almost brilliant figure against the immense blackness. Without
understanding how she knew, Lina knew that this was not only the Lord of
Nightmares, but L-Sama’s own form. Lina instinctively kneeled, and a chuckle
escaped the woman.
Stand, Lina Inverse.
Stand and claim your Self as Power.
Self as Power? Lina
wondered as she stood and looked to the Lord of Nightmares. She gasped
as the golden eyes of the Golden One herself opened to reveal a beautiful
brilliance. The light spilled around Lina, and before the sorceress understood
what had happened, she was caught up in a wash of power that swirled around
her. She felt something, as if some part of her were just now waking up,
an awareness that she hadn’t used before.
Awaken the Chaos within
you, Lina Inverse.
Lina knew what the Lord
of Nightmares was telling her, knew the way to take… but for a moment,
she hesitated.
Amelia put the book that
she was reading down as Anya came in with her lunch. She smiled and thanked
the shade, then picked up a carrot stick and looked at the cover of the
book.
It was one of the few books
that she had heard of but never dreamed of seeing, and she couldn’t believe
that she’d found this in the library. She never had expected that she’d
find a copy of Luo Glaon’s writings. He was one of the Five Sages, devoted
to the study of White Magic. And here she was, reading his spells. She
shook her head and picked the book back up, intent on discovering if there
was a spell capable of removing the curse on Zelgadis in the book.
Granted, a good deal of
what it covered drew on the Sealed Magics, but something within the fragile
pages of this ancient tome might reveal a clue to unraveling the secret.
Since meeting Zelgadis,
Amelia had become quite well read on chimeras in general, but in all of
her knowledge, she could find no other reference on a human being turned
into a chimera. All of the chimeric texts referred to beings that were
made as chimeras from the beginning… none that were originally human.
Taking a bite of carrot,
Amelia continued on her own personal quest.
Zelgadis was sitting on a
bench in the small vegetable garden, watching a bee fly busily from flower
to flower on a row of plants. Actually, he was sulking, but he didn’t want
to admit it.
A shadow fell over the garden,
and he looked up to see Kira standing there watching the same bee. It was
eerie how much she looked like Lina in the sorceress’ clothing and with
her hair bound only with a ribbon like Lina’s. But to think that Kira was
so much older than any of them…
“Zelgadis, why do you seek
a cure?” Kira asked without taking her eyes off of the bee.
“Who would want to be a
monster?” He replied, looking back at the garden. “My skin is stone, my
hair wire. How can I possibly be anything more than a freak?”
“I am over a hundred years
old, Zelgadis. And yet, I look no older than Lina. Is that not also freakish?
A near-immortal human? Sure, the townspeople talk, but they don’t bother
me about it.” Kira shook her head, her red hair flipping about her shoulders.
“If you weren’t a chimera, Zelgadis… do you think that you would have survived
some of your adventures? Would you have been able to live through the risks
that you take every day?”
He looked at her, startled.
“Risks? What are you talking about?”
She sighed and sat down.
“Zelgadis, your body is made of stone, and you count on that whether you
know it consciously or not. I know your adventures… The Chaos Knight has
shared some of them with me.” She had to be careful not to name Lina directly,
in case they were being watched. “You took a cannonball to your head… even
though it knocked you cold for half an hour. A human would have been killed.
You took that attack for Amelia, and even that was almost too much for
your stone body.”
He looked away. Those had
just been things he’d done without thinking.
“And I know that you can
bleed. You need to eat, even though you prefer not to be seen doing so.
Think about it, Zelgadis. How long would you have survived?” Kira asked.
He shook his head slowly
as he thought over those things that she had mentioned, and others that
she had not. He hated to admit it, even to himself. He had been relying
on the stone body without even being aware that he was. “I… concede your
point.”
Kira smiled faintly. “And
I can say with clear knowledge that none of your friends think that you
are a monster or a freak.” She paused. “Amelia… is young. Youth often goes
hand-in-hand with impetuousness,” Kira amended after a moment’s recollection.
Zelgadis offered her a wry
smile. “That comment might well have been applied to me that day.”
Kira grinned at him, once
again reminding him so cleanly of Lina that he had to forcibly remind himself
that it was Kira Inverse and not Lina Inverse beside him. “We all make
mistakes in life, Zelgadis. I’ve made my share.”
Zelgadis looked up and frowned
as he noticed the blonde swordsman staring into the forest on the far edge
of Kira’s back yard. Nodding his head to indicate Gourry, he asked, “What
is he doing?”
Kira looked up and over
to follow Zelgadis’ line of sight. “Oh. I would imagine that they have
come to see him.”
“They?” Zelgadis repeated.
Kira nodded. “Yes. The elves.”
Zelgadis frowned, looking
at Kira. “What would elves want to have to do with him? I thought the elves
didn’t care for humans.”
“Normally, that’s the case,”
Kira smiled. “But a long time ago an elf loved a human. Gourry is their
descendant.”